CPR oh CPR
what could be worse than got sick for a week, and then disambung sama period? udah bete gara gara maag and fever, skr harus going thru this uncomfortable feeling, and yes! mood swing caused by PMS’ hormone.
but yet, i always always remind myself not to be controlled by circumstances (pms, people, failures, bad situation). when people are facing a bad situation, I know that a lot of them blame it on external/internal factors. For a gurl, kalo lagi bt suka nya nyalahin hormones yang katanya bikin mood ngga stabil. To be honest, i don’t believe in that! I think we have control over ourselves. everything comes from our mind. everything comes from our heart. mau lagi PMS kek, mau baru accident, abis berantem, mau abis dapet apa juga.. kalo mau heppi heppi yah heppi aja..
like today, God has given me the reason of claiming the 18th of May as the most surprising, crazy moment of the month rather than think of it as “supposedly my PMS gloomy days..”
so, gals, y’all know kan that i work for Maggie Moo’s as an accountant kan.. so, one of my duties is to go to the bank every week.. and yea, so far, this has been my fave part of the job soalnya i’ve been ngecengin this Bank of America manager yang totally cakep abiiis that makes me head over heels.. hahaha. engga sampe gimana gimana sih, cuma ngantri di bank jadi ngga nge bt in since i got nice view everytime. hehehe.
so, dasar Tuhan emang bae, there was one time, i met one of my class mate yang lagi ngantri juga.. he goes,“stef???how do you end up here?” (considering that my workplace is far from where i live..) i was like, “yes, i work around here..”
tau tau nya, the “oh-so-handsome” manager datengin my class mate and ternyata mereka kenalll… awwww, what a fortunate coincidence?? hahaha. aduh, temennya yang satu ini dikenalin lahh jadinya to the bank manager.
i cud’ve swore that from an inch distance he still look as gorgeous as when i see him from his table. tinggiii banget that makes me promised my self to wear my highest heels everytime i go there. muhahahhaha. he’s 25, dah gitu cakep banget.bisa gila deh pokonya. and his badge that says “manager” makes him even cuter-er.
today, i went to the bank in the afternoon to do my ritual thing.. i saw him on the phone gitu inside his room.. and i didnt try to look at his room again, males ahhh, ntar disangkain mau flirting lagi.. ngapain juga. it was done for ten minutes and then i left.
around three pm, satu orang yg kerja di maggie went inside and said to me, “hey, are you stefannie? someone is looking for you.”
i was like, “i have a guest??? who?? anehhh aja. nobody knows i work here. i mean who? i dont have any friend who lives around here either.” so, i said.. “can you just tell him that i’m working??” i was like siapa sih?
and she goes, “are you sure you dont want to meet him?”
so, i was like, “ok, lemme see.. “ so i looked thru the cctv camera, there was a man wearing a suit.. tapi cuma keliatan belakang nya doank..
“ok, i’ll go outside.”
OHMIGUUDDNESS. it was him, the guy at the bank!!!!
i was like, “heyyy?? how do you know i work here???”
he goes.. “yeah, remember, you told me when danny introduced you to me.”
“hah. you remember?”
“he said. of course? how could i forget.”
huhhh. sweet talker.
“so yeah, what’s up?”
“he goes.. oh no.. i saw you at the bank today.. but i didnt have a chance to talk to you.. and so, i just had my lunch at the upper mall food court area and passed maggie moo’s store.. thought i’ll come by to say hi to you.”
this is really crazy. hahahaha. especially cos his armani suit and pink gucci tie (IT waS REALLY PINK!) was really shining..
but this is the craziest line.. “we could have lunch sometimes, you know. call me anytime.” and then he handed me his kartunama.
Travis Marks
Bank of America Manager.
Tuhan, why making my life harder? why giving me this kind of temptation?
i said my bf name seratus kali!!!!! tolong lahhh sayahh.
ehhh, baru aja selesei nulis ini dapet sms dr indo: “hey dear, lagi ngapain? aku lagi di jalan baru pulang retreat. kangen kamu.”
[thank you for the CPR -- it rescued me.]
bed rest
— jerawats
whoalllaa, apparently i’ve been workin toO harddd for the past 2 months.. this morning my body totally ngadat and ngambek to me after di-abuse trs trs an..now, it forced me to shut down by lyingg on ma bed seharian.
ngga pernah kerasa gimana gimana sihh.. cuma paling over-exhausted after a long crazy weekdays and then i paid it off by sleepin all day on the weekend. but this morning, i got up from my bed, ready to take shower mo kerja.. all of sudden i got terrible headache, pengen muntah, my body shivered, and yeaps, i fainted.
my rummie was so kagettt seeing me pingsan.. it was horrible..! so yaah, here i am.. sakittt.
beginilahhh sakit di amrik.. you have to take care your self even when u’re sick.. my rummie’s mom kebetulan lagi ada disini sih.. so untung ada nice auntie here wiff me.. if not, im gonna feel super terrible.. ngga ada mamih, ngga ada pacar, ngga ada mba yg bisa disuruh pijitinn.. hehe.
i called me bf supaya di pamper gitu yahh with sweet words like "aduhh sayangg, cepet sembuh yahh.. i love you, i miss you.." ternyata comment nya tidak seperti yg diharapkan.. "kamu sihh ngga ngurus diri, telat makan trs, kurang tidur, ngga pernah makan buah.. udah ayo makan yg banyak, jangan sakit.. aku stress kalo kamu sakit."
i was like.. ihhhhh.. orang sakit kalo dimarahin tambah sakit kalliii.. sigh.
ya suteralah, im gonna go back to sleep.. Thank God its Fridaayyy.. coba kalo weekdays trs ada midterms.. i’ll be panic.
deuh, cant help ma self to think abt skul and kerjaan yg ditinggalin nihh..
dear oh dear scatter brain, shall we take a rest?
best friend forevaa
jam satu.21 am in da morning.. so aneh, blom ngantuk padahal jelas jelas seminggu kurang tidur..
eniwei, i just read my msn history wiff reggy couple deis ago, yang waktu kita ngomongin soal best friends.. tau ngga sih, i feel sooo lucky to have beberapah orang that i can call "best friend".. they are those very rare people whom i can trust, who love me, whom i love, yang bisa ngerti, yg ngga pernah nge-judge, yg setia, reliable, and seterusnya..
ahhhh, i want to dedicate this blog to all of you:
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Avina…
best friend sayah ini sayah panggil Nana.. when people ask me eniting about best friend, she will definitely be the first person that goes to my mind. orangnya baeee abisss, everyone’s favourite, super friendly, and yg paling special is.. with her, i can be my self, i can tell her anythingggg, baek buruk jelek bagus without takut di-judge, neverr in my lyfe i heard her say a word that bring me down, orangnya ramee and bisa dipercaya, moody sometimes (especially kalo cape and ngantuk) just have to be prepare to repeat a sentence for couple times when she’s on her "ngantuk" mood.. =P, punya prinsip, strong, adorable, loves God banget, pokonya kita mah selalu belajar thru each other mistakes yah na.. sama sama di shape thru lots of pengalaman gila (from accident, spiritual journey, pelayanan bareng, ngelatih dance, percintaan, sampe ketipu2 pas ngelamar kerjaan yah naa.. hahaha), when im happy she’ll be very happy, when im down dia juga ikutan.. i love love love, Na.. and bottom line.. anything that you can ask from a best friend, she has it. in terms of personality, i can say that we have sum similarities, dan of course differences that compliment each other weaknesses.
Reggy dehhh reggyyyyy.. =P
nahhh, tis person juga will definitely goes to my mind klo ngomongin best friend.. kalo uda sama dia, tenanggggg banget. segala juga diurusin sama pa reggy mahh. orang nya down to earth bangettt, loyaaal skali, apa juga dibantuin, his principle "apa sih yang engga buat elu, cha". aaaaaaw gyyy so sweet, one thing to mention abt you, advance gombalism!! kalo uda ngerayuuu eleuh eleuh, hati pasti luluh laaah ya ngga gyyy. hahaha, of course friendly (especially wiff gurls) hehe *pusinkkk yah gy kalo liat cw cakep teh*, talented (gitar, piano, anykind of alat music lahh dia bisa..) gyyy, kynya sayah mentioned too much abt you nihhh. there would be 2 possible consequences: 1. elu jadi ke GR an 2. abis deh guah di msg-in cw2 yg nanya no tlp elu. nahh skalian promosi, he’s the most eligible bachelor in town. ^__^again, im soooo luckyyy to have a best friend yg bener benerrrr sayanggggg sama sayahhh. nah nah, soal sayang agak agak tricky yahh gy.. lots of people been asking moi if bestfriend-nan with opposite sex is ever possible.. "beneran nih ngga ada other intention?".. hahhaa. pokonya sampe digosipin jadian sama dia juga pernah.. tapi gimana yahh? emang beneran bestfriend koq.. =) pokonya reggy paling tau eteph luar dalem, masalah percintaan selalu curhat nya ke Bapa reggy.. so tender lahh dia kalo kasih advice.. with gentle-ness gitu lohhh yaah gyyy. hehehe.
Lilly..
my longest best friend ever!! 22 yrs of friendship that getting stronger and stronger each dayyy. mamih nya dia and my mom are "hopeng beratt" since kita umur satu. keluarga kita mah deketnya lebih lebih dari sodara yahh li.. btw, if she looks so familiar to you, that’s becos she used to be "artist sinetron" di indo. in terms of personality, dia ini yang palinggg beda diantara best friends sayah yg lain.. beda cos she’s a bit quiet, a listener, veryyyyyy innocent, apa ada nyah, veryyy funny, ceplas ceplos, feminine, stylishh (iyaaa laaah artist *wink*), honest banget, and bae bangett. been thru lots of ups and downs, dari yg namanya berantem berantem anak kecil, sunday skul bareng, pokonya lots of cute funny childhood memories deh kalo sama dia sih. ahh babyyy i love youuuu, liii.
best friend saya, yang kanan, of course.. namanya Fransiska. babee, i cant believe that you dont really have foto sendiri on your fs.. semua nya either with your baby or hubby. hahaha. dimengerti koqq.. yg sudah berkeluarga dehhh.. =P this person is my true partner in crime.. from watching taiwan-korean dramas.. (bisa sampe ngga tidur tidur yahh sis..) to menambah samcann and diet-ing. dulu, ampir tiap malem she’d stay at my house.. curhat-ing ngalor ngidul sampe pagiiii. with her, i can cry out loud and bergila gila without malu malu or pretend to be someone else. sama siska banyak juga memori nyahh mennn.. dari yg gila (ikutan lomba nulis surat tea siss.. huahuahuaa) sampe di curhatin segala macem adventure nya dia in pursuit of happiness ya ngga sis? it’s all worth it donk yah sis, now that you’re happy wiff hubby and adorable son, gua ikut seneeenggg bangett sayyy.
finally, ngantukk dehh.. i still have four more BFF yang blom di mention.. next time deh yahh..
sebelum saya disconnect, lemme thank all of youu for being the greatest gifts that one can possibly have in lyfe. kalo ngga ada elu elu orang, im 100 percent sure that ngga bakalan ada gua yg sekarang.. thank youu for every precious moments, every advices, tears, prayers, love, and care to me. thank you muchos muchosss all!! you’re da bestttt.
kisah kasih masa lampaO
at lasttttttt, i can now bersorak girang cos my midterms and all crazy assignments are done! seven in a row, babyyyy.. ngga tidurr for nearly a week, kamar berantakaaan, papers and books all over the room, lost 2 pounds, jerawat yg ngga pernah datang tiba tiba sekarang ada 3, and thanks for making me ate junk foods everyday. i was nearly tewassss.
however, the craziest thing was.. today, i checked my grade report to see who knows my professors have uploaded the grades.. and apparently they had it posted!! belom semua sih, baru 5 out of 7 midterms.. and miraculously.. i got all A’s!! waaaahhh, hepppiiinyaa kaya diulang taun-in.. haha.
anyhuu, i just had a funny, and delightful chit chat with ma friend from spore.. out of the blue he called me after menghilang for almost a year.. pinterrr, nelfon trs ngagetinn lagihh.. bilang nya dari Indo embassy and pranked me by saying that i haven’t report back to them.. untung i still recognize your cempreng voicee hahaha. udahhh lahh, you won’t be able to trick me with your voice.. too significant.. kekeke.
by the way, it was such a delightful chitchat cos he reminded me of my fond teen memories.. tau ngga sih, dot.. abis tlp sama elu.. gua jadi mikir yang elu bilang kalo gua selalu HOKI beratt.. haha. jadi nginget2 hundreds of crazy serendipity stories of mine, and it makes me smile all dayyy. and im sooo glad that elu juga berubah banyaaak, dot.. especially the story of your spritual journeyy.. bener bener bikin me terharuuu.. bener yah, dot.. Tuhan mah selalu setiaaa.. He is who he is no matter where we are!!
yeah, i flashed back banyaaak hal wiff my friend yg satu ini.. he made me realize that Tuhan itu memang baeeee banget, sometimes funny, full of grace and mercy, and does, pay attention to the details!!
i remember one day duluu, i met this unbelievably gorgeous guy for the first time in a kkr service at my church in indo. I was ushering, and he was doing decoration i think.. i was lyke, "koq bisaaa gue ngga pernah liat yaah ini cowoo, where have you been??" apparently, he came from some other church, and was there to help.
trs trs yah, he was so good looking, perfect from head to toe.. and gile aja, even sampe sekarang i can still remember how he look, and waktu dia abis dekor and sat on the stairs and nyanyiii "it came over me … in a rush.. diulang ulang lyke 10 times.." unfortunately, kita ngga kenalan at that time, and i went home with this penasaran feeling.. Tuhaaan, siapa sih namanya??? hahaha.
then when was in the car on my way to EF, all of sudden di OZ radio ada lagu ini.. i was lyke,"heyyyy, lagu ini kannnnn.. yg waktu ituuu".. nahh reggy, if you question me why me likey "In a rush — by Blackstreet".. now you know.. hehhehe.
here it goes the serendipity part, about 1.5 yrs later.. my mba called me from down stair, told me that i had a guest.. i was bangun tidur sore sore.. and opened the door. aaaahhh, i was mau pingsannnnnnnn. there he was, that gorgeous man who sang In a rush di tangga, right in front of my face.. busyeeeeet.
speechless!!!!
ahhh, what shud i say?
tau nya all of sudden my friend ngagetin dr bekalang.. "DOR, eteph.. hahaha, mau ngagetin eluuu nih.. jadi gua suruh si Martin yg berdiri di depan.."
she goes, "ohhh.. namanya Martin."
then ya uda kita ngobrol ngobrol di taman belakang, with waterfall, kolam ikan, and burung burunggg, and yessss, this unbelievably handsomeee human being.. hahahha. excuse moi, my other friend.. i couldnt recall what we talked abt that dayyy, ngga konsennn, me konsen ke tempat lain.. heyyy.. blame this cute guyyy, por favor!! hahaha.
okay, til now, we’re still freunds, tidak berlanjut kemana mana euy.. soalnya waktu itu gua punya cowo, dia jg punya cewe.. but the idea of dia tiba tiba muncul in front of my door, sendiri, bikin kaya God’s sent ngga siyyy?
and if you know me well enuff, you probably know that i have hundreds of serendipity stories yang kadang kadang bikin bingung… gyyy, mr. magician bisa di consider as one of my crazy story juga ngga yahh??
not to mention my f4 moment.. i met vanness wu f4 up close and personal gara gara those serendipity thing jg.. aaah, he’s one the most "mulus" kulit orang i’ve ever see in my lyfe.. caakkeeeeeepppp!!! and so did, nonton F4 berenang.. hahaha. jaman duluuuu bangettt. and yeaps, puluhan serendipity moments with mi bf.. bikin kita mikirrrr panjang tiap kali berantem and wanted to give up, we have too many serendipity moments in our relationship..
back to the topic, so my freund from spore ini used to bilang that "im so hokii", and dulu i said ahh bukan hoki lah, Tuhan bae aja.. dia dengerin, dotz the desire of my heart.. hehehe. and he was so against me kalo uda menyangkut soal God, grace, love, and all. "ngga percaya euy gua mah sama yang gitu teh, kalo emang semua diatur Tuhan.. manusia ngga punya freedom donk?? semua nya yg ngatur waktu lah teph, sama hoki, or bad luck gua percaya." so chineseeee eluuu tehhhh!!! hahaha.
iyahh dots, walopun me had so many "terlalu aneh kalo cuma kebetulan" stories, this particular kepala batu human being tralu susah buat percaya that IT IS really JC yg let everything happen..
makanya i was kagetttt when he called me and said that "gua percaya teph sekarang mah!! gua tertangkap oleh JC tau ngga waktu ke gereja guedeee di spore buat ngeceng cw.. hahaha"
yahhh, emang uda saatnya dotsss.. heyyy, that cud be your serendipity moment wiff God, tauu!! hehehe. yah dots, as you said to me, "gua ngeliat Tuhan itu baek banget sama elu.. makanya elu mah hOkiiii ajaaa.. (hahaha teteup yah Hoki part nya), tapi teph, gua juga percaya bahwa ngga ada sehelai rambutpun yg jatuh tanpa seijin Tuhan."
amennnnn dots!!!! so proud of yaaaa.
san francisco..
Hopping out of bed thinking of the one thing..
that makes the morning sun looks brighter than yesterday..
that makes the birds sing more beautifully than it used to be..
that makes the spring sky looks so blue ..
that thing is Love..
to know that i am loved, truly madly deeply, by You..
[san francisco]
student bangettt sihhh
hmmm, it’s been a while since i last blogged. just back from photo lab after a longggggg 3 hrs lecture. sekarang lagi di warren hall library.. im not feelin well ey these deiz for a very obvious reason of coz. havent had a good nite sleep for a while, 4 days to be precise. ga kira kira sihhh, assignments, midterm exams, projects are due this week and next week. i have tried ma very best buat terusss belajar and ngerjain semua nya ahead of time (not so eteph kaan) haha. but yeah, i have SEVEN assignments, and thousands things to do. uda bener bener overloadsss, 24 hrs/day wont be enuff nihh.
eniwei, since im a student, topic nya student life gapapa la yaahh.. hehehe. as i told my friends who confessed to be my setia blog’s readers, the purpose of me writing blog is supaya the readers bisa ter-berkati or terhibur with whatever i curhat on. tapi kalo pas lagi sibuk begini.. maafken sadja lah yahh kalo isinya totally junk dan keluh kesah suka dan duka saya sebagai pelajar sejati.. (kebanyakan duka nya euy) hahaha.
so yeah, my black and white photo class is literally killing moiiii. beneran da, kalo ngga bener bener suka, ngga bener bener bakat, and cuma iseng iseng, mendingan this type of class dijauhin. I have wasted 5 rolls of film, 50 glossy papers, my veryyy time, and of cos so much dollars for this class. one thing to remember foreva, seneng difoto is NOT equal to seneng motret!!! especially, kalo camera nya manual, and gurunya ngga cool banget, and the rest of the students in the class majoring in photography. i was about to enroll in digital photo class, tapi kelasnya uda keburu penuh, and this particular bw photo class was the only one available.. i thought, "ahh, beda beda dikit, pasti fun koq tetep…"
and now i feel like giving the deepest honor, and appreciation to the inventor of digital camera. Thank you veryyy much for making my life so much easier. manual camera syusaaaahhh bangetttt… kaga ada autofocus, harus nyuci negatif nya sendiri.. blom lagi klo foto nya too flat kaga bisa di photoshop. i spent 5 hrs in the lab just to develop 2 pictures.. tengkyu very muchh.
ayayayaiii, ngga kerasa weekend is just around the corner, and i got 4 phone calls so far from people yang ngajakin pegi.. masih bingung mau ngapain abisnya the choices are vary from masak masakk (masih bingung nih, cel), menambah samcannn (still think abt it carlos), shopping, nonton, to fitness (shinnnn, as i texted you.. eteph ikut makannya aja yahhh.. hahaha). yah, we’ll see if i can somehow be a superwoman and selsein 3 of my 7 projects, most likely im ON for the weekend!!
ah, and i couldnt stop thinking of you.
thinking of our conversation this very afternoon.
why did you have to tell me that you love me?
why didnt you keep it to yourself.
isnt every gurl in this world know..
that it feels great to be loved
but the minute you confess
would make me have to step back from you.
but dont stop loving me.
unconditionally…
[una mujer confundida]
