The Tales of Infinity

just got back from the theater after watching the movie 300 , ga sukaaa ah, terlalu banyak violence nya, too bloody. but i gotta admit that they’ve done a greattt work on visual standpoint and graphic.. tapi still, to me the movie itself is too "hyper-reality" and anehhh.. yes, it is successfully bringing the sense of heroism and masculinity.. tapi masa ada badak ikutan perang.. as well as monsters and aliens faces. tapi pas tau kalo yg bikin Frank Miller, i goes "pantes ajaa aneh and bLoody.. sin cityy gituuu" ngga suka ahhh.. bikin kebayang bayang and ati ngga enakk. sigh.
film cowo kali yahhh? cos both my bf and my bestfren reggy were saying that the movie 300 is "highly-recomended deeehhh"..

anywayy, hari ini ngga kira kira cape bangett.. running here and there, went to three banks malls eating out and terakhir nonton 300. i’ve spent sooo much dollars on my spring breakk.. went to malls 3 days in a row and yeapss "tiada hari tanpa shopping babee"
heeh, it’s my guilty pleasure for studying and working  harddd last quarter.. i kept on sayingg  "it’s ok lahh, kan uda cape belajar  kmrn kmrn.." tapi i seriously need help to cure my impulsive buying behavior, especially for MAC productss. i can’t say no to their too gorgeous eye shadows, too flawless make up finish, and beautiful lipsticks. and yes, this afternoon, i accompanied hema to buy make-ups since she’ll start working next monday, she got too many reasons for buying new clothes, new make ups, new shoes, new bags? definitely got excited even before it’s started uh? but heyyy, it doesnt hurt to give an impressive look on first day of work, rite???

nah nah, tapi saya jadi ikutan shoppingg berlebihannn. perfumes (i’ve been wanting to buy this perfumes dari lama blom sempet sempet ajaa), eye shadow enhancer (as great as it’s advertised), eyeshadows (warna nya laen koqq), make over bible (buat apa punya make-ups kalo ngga tau cara pake nya), spring dresses (biar sesuai sama musim nya, springyyyy).. hahhaha. yesterday, pulang pulang, i counted them all and went "terakhirrr for this month.. ngga shopping lg sampe next month" duhh, what should i say today?? "papihh, i mean Tuhann, serius ini terakhirrr for this month.." amennn. deuh speaking in tounge yuuu kita usirr nih gejala gejala impulsive buying behaviorr. self-control tephhhh, thank you.

ya dah, besok mah saya diem dirumah aja ahhh. doing my homework — reading the book: Discover your strength — yang katanya bagusss bangett.. aite aite.
niteyyy. [with love from sf]

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finalllyyyyy… saya nge blog lagiii…

after so many sleepless night due to final examss and projects akhirnya saya bisa resting my brain and sleeping for the longest hourss. im waiting for my grade to be posted which really scares mee. hopinggg that it’ll be all A’s eventhO i doubt it very much. but hey since gereja saya IFGF, saya menyesuaikan diri sama slogan of the year nya.. IMPOSSIBLE is NOTHINGGGG!!! hoho..

my last final for business law was soooo hard.. you know, the type of questions on the final yg walopun uda belajar ampe ngga tidur for 2 days tetep aja susah and ngga ngerasa bisa.. sigh, bener bener soal dewaaa! and im seriously crossing my finger soalnya i made a commitment that if my grade goes below 3.5, i would have to quit dari smua kerjaan sekarang..

anywaiiii, spring break has started my dear friend.. i’ve googled many cities just for the sake of vacation references.. london, munich, prague, shanghai, paris, sydney, barcelona, milan. smua nya so tempting and minta disingahii.. (na, vandaa, munichh and prague?? seriusssannnn)

at last i decided not to go anywhere.. iaaa disini aja, di sf sajahh.. i just moved to a new apartment.. welll not that niuuu, 3 weeks? tapi seriusss harus beres beres nihh mumpung spring breaK.. i postponed my plan to London due to circumstances yg tidak memungkinkan.. gerryy, jangan kecewaaa yahh.. summer dehh summerr disempetin pegi ksanaaa

niwei, i just got back from san rafael.. an hour from haywarddd.. gileh jauh skaliii.. i accompany my niu roomie looking for a car.. and since this is her first time cari cari mobil, jadi nya she thinks that im an expert soal beli mobil.. addduuuhhh. ngga bangetttt.. tapi yahhh begitulahhh.. kalo hidup tanpa lelaKi.. soal yg begini begini (yg biasanya minta tolong cowo harus dikerjain sendiri..)

when we moved to our niu apt, and have to angkat angkat barang berat, we kept on saying "i wishhh my boyfriend is hereee" hahaha. iaaah, she and i, dua dua nya pacaran Long distance..

back to the car, uda jauh jauh pegi.. untung the car was so nice.. my rummi langsungg "I loveee itt, can we make an offer and take it now??"

hahhh, gini yahhh kata orangg you have to sleep a night to decide.. meaning NO hurry.. but she lovess the car too muchhh and maksaa sayah buat bargainn. aduhhh another "not quite my expertise darlingg" hahhaa. gotta bring my mom buat nawarr  nihhh.. hueheuhee.

anyhuuu, i have a photo session coming uppp tomorrowww.. yippie.. a friend of mine just bought a brand new lense and mau berexperimenttt.. "stefannie, are you free on wednesday??" i was going "why?"

"wanna be my model?"

yesss, of course.. heyyy can’t say nooo to a photoshoott right? hehe.

ya dahh, i gotta go to sleep biar mata ngga puffyy for tomorrow.

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2am.

i have to move to the right

i open my laptop, "youtube lagi, youtube lagi"

–laki laki juga bisa nangis ep.4–

tell me, what should i do after this

renda lagii renda lagi!!

how i could be so brave to enter a new chapter

blame it on tukul arwana who makes me laugh tons of laughters

who makes the night to be so unforgettable

why did you choose to be the left?

stares, terus ketawa. gila gila gila.

what should i answer on my truth or dare game?

i would definitely always pick the "dare"

not revealing the truth. "silent please" cross the little fingers.

Thank You, i passed the hardest moment.

and finally came the silent night

3 hours and a half.

my alarm rang, saya harus pergi kelas nih

aaah, the hard moment datang lagi

"kamu kenapa sih???"

"saya bisa gila"

pick some numbers, equations. problem solved.

80 ditangan donk?? haha

tuh kannn, "lagi lagi kamu."

heart beats hundred times faster

what should i do now?

yes, a quick moment comes

let go..

but my brain said no.

what about my heart?

feeling guilty, but yet can’t stop

susah sih, cewe tuh pake feeling terus

before i finished my thought

"kamu lagiiii"

what do you feel sih?

i felt MIXED!!! kacaO!!! mateng!!!

definitely

should i call it wonderful

or

simply a history?

was it truly worth it?

pusing kan?? biarlah..

dia yang menjawab

dan saya,

"kembali ke laptoppp…

[stary stary night. march 14]

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thought this would enlighten your day =) thanks to sumone who always try to make me smile.

iaa koqq ini beneran lucu.. =)

Dear IT Support:

Last year I upgraded
  from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slow down in the
  overall performance, particularly in the Flower and Jewellery applications,
  which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0
  un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal
  Attention 6.5 and then installed undesirable programs such as: Football 5.0,
  Rugby 4.3 and Cricket 3.0.

Conversation 8.0 no longer runs; it simply
  crashes the system. I’ve tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, to
  no avail. What can I do?

Signed, Desperate
  ——————

Dear Desperate:

First keep in
  mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an
  Operating System.

Try entering the command: C:/I-THOUGHT-YOU-LOVED-ME
  to download Tears 6.2, which should automatically install Guilt 3.0. If that
  application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the
  applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember, overuse of
  the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5,
  Happy Hour 7.0, or Beer 6.1.

WARNING: Beer 6.1 is a very nasty program
  that will create Snoring Loudly.

CAUTION: Whatever you do, DO NOT
  install Mother-in-law. This is not a supported application and will crash
  Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does
  have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might
  consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance. I
  personally would recommend Hot Food 3.0 and Lingerie 7.7.

Good Luck, IT
  Support ——————

Dear IT Support,

18
  months ago, I upgraded to Girlfriend 1.0 from DrinkingMates 4.2, which I had
  used for years without any trouble. However, there are apparently conflicts
  between these two products and the only solution was to try and run Girlfriend
  1.0 with the sound turned off.

To make matters worse, Girlfriend 1.0 is
  incompatible with several other applications, such as LadsNightOut 3.1,
  Football 4.5, and Playboy 6.9. Successive versions of GirlFriend proved no
  better.

I tried a shareware program, Slapper 2.1, but it had many bugs
  and left a virus in my system, forcing me to shut down completely for several
  weeks.

Eventually, I tried to run GirlFriend 1.2 and Girlfriend 1.0 at
  the same time, only to discover that when these two systems detected each
  other they caused severe damage to my hardware.

I eventually upgraded
  to Fiancée 1.0, only to discover that this product soon had to be upgraded
  further to Wife 1.0. While Wife 1.0 tends to use up all my available
  resources, it does come bundled with Free-S-e-xxPlus and Cleanhouse2005. 

Shortly after this upgrade, however, I
  found that Wife 1.0 could be very unstable and costly to run. Any mistakes I
  made were automatically stored in Wife 1.0’s memory and could not be
  deleted.

They then resurfaced months later when I had forgotten about
  them.

Wife 1.0 also has an automatic Diary, Explorer and E-mail filter,
  and can, without warning, launch TurboStrop and Multi-Whinge. These latter
  products have no Help files, and I have to try to guess what the problem
  is.

Additional problems are that Wife 1.0 needs updating regularly,
  requiring ShoeShop Browser for new attachments and Hairstyle Express which
  needs to be reinstalled every other week. Also, when Wife 1.0 attaches itself
  to my Audi TT Convertible hard drive, it often crashes.

Wife 1.0 also
  comes with an irritating pop-up called MotherInLaw, which can’t be turned
  off.

Recently I’ve been tempted to install Mistress 2005, but there
  could be problems. A friend of mine has alerted me to the fact that if Wife
  1.0 detects Mistress 2005, it tends to delete all of your Money before
  uninstalling itself’.

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2:50 am San Francisco time, and i cudn’t sleep padahal pagi ini latihan music jam 8!! ahh ci wendyy if you happen to read this.. kena insomnia mendadak nihhh. ^__^

well well, finally i got my internet connection nyala for the first nightttt after moving to a new apartment and got to live for 10 days without internettt.

niwei, i open kompas.com just now, reading update ttg indo.. aduhhh, reading indo newspapers bikin kepala mumet.. bencana lagiii bencana lagiii. kalo ngga banjir, earthquake, kalo ngga earthquake kapal tenggelem, pesawat jatoh aja lagi nge-trend.. orang jalan kaki aja bisa ketimpa papan billboard.. jadi sebenernya kenapa sih koq di indo kynya hidup orang uda ngga ada harga nya??

after reading so many news, i’ve come to a conclusion that yes, hidup ada di tangan Tuhan.. but what about so many accidents gara gara human errors?? kapal cuma boleh diisi 300 people, diisi 500.. pesawat uda so old ngga diganti ganti juga…

kapan indo mau maju kalo orang orang yang diatas ngga pada sadar akan pentingnya standard keselamatan?

so sad to read this on kompas.com, "beruntunnya musibah pesawat udara belakangan ini karena kontrol terhadap kesehatan pesawat sangat lemah. Uji kelayakan laik terbang hanya formalitas dan tidak diteliti secara cermat. Bisa dikatakan, penelitiannya hanya  sekadar tanda tangan formulir.

"KIR pesawat bisa diduitin, uji kelaikan terbang bisa dibeli. Semua bisa diatur dengan duit. Kita imbau, ada gerakan perbaikan etika, moral dan budaya di bidang transportasi nasional sehingga rakyat kita bisa terselamatkan.."

okay, kenapa sih indo people? everything is about money and money.

duluuu bangett.. my friend said to me, "teph, pake duit tuh segala gala nya bisa dibeli tau ngga.. asal ada duit and pinter ngomong, your life would be fine." i was like? masa sih? ngga ahhh.

and tiap kali balik indo, i’ve always met her.. and her perception about money never changes.. and malah she starts to make me agree to her perspective..

this was what she said on my last vacation to indo,

"loe masih ngga percaya juga kalo ada duit apa juga bisa dibeli?? nih, gua kasih tau yah.. simply my experience,

kemaren ini ada mango sale gede gede an, orang udah ngantri abis di dalem.. penuh banget.. terus gue naksir satu baju.. eh tau nya uda ngga ada ukuran..

so, gue tanya sama spg nya.. ehh gile, dia jutek abis gitu bilang, "apa yang ada di gantungan itu yg terakhir!!"..

terus gua bilang sama bokap gua yang pas nemenin, "pah, minta sa-Ban donk.." bokap gue bilang.. mau buat apa?? trs gua bilang, mau suruh spg nya cariin ke gudang.."

bokap gua bilang, "ngga mungkin bisaa lahh"

gue bilang, udahhh sini. trs gua deketin satu spg, gue bilang, mba cariin saya ukuran XS donk, sambil gue jejelin sa-banan ke tangan nya..

tau ngga loe, tuh spg uda ngga banyak omong langsung masuk ke dalem bawain gua baju model itu seabrek abrek.. ehhh, tau nya ukuran gue uda abis beneran.. satu satu nya tinggal yg dipajang di patung.. trs ternyata udah ada orang yg hold baju yg dipatung..

nah, spg yg gue tadi sa-ban gue kasih tau, uda deh dia turun tangan.. and yes, baju nya jadi milik gue tuh..

"mau gue ceritain my other experience?"

i was like.. ngga ngga, enuff enuff.. hah, mau ngomong apa lagi sama dia.. mau ngebantah juga emang begitu koq kenyataan nya..

ah, ya sudah lah.. i have to log off from friendster before the sun rises and call it a morning.. and sebelom suara ilang gara gara kurang tidur..

altalavista

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Have you ever feel that you are
someone else to yourself, you dont recognize who you are anymore, start to be
confuse of your own being, and do something that is against your life
principle? If your answer is yes, well. You’re not alone.

 im on the stage of discovering my
inner self.. as the matter of fact, i dont recognize the gurl whom i see in the
mirror anymore. im totally a stranger to myself.

Last month, my friend asked me to
fill out an interactive psychological quiz (it was a Johari window), and the
purpose of the quiz was to find our personality awareness, thank God that we’re
indeed, has this part of self that are unknown even to ourselves that might be
discovered or ngga pernah ketauan ever.

I just find out that we are a
mystery to ourselves, and as i discover a lot of things about my inner being, I
started to be amazed with ‘em. my reactions in handling things, how I cud be so
emotional, how I cud be so strong, so weak and sentimental..

Yea, until a big rock hit me
really hard and forced me to dispense my inner self that is hidden inside, I have
never known what kind of person I truly am. Ngeri ngga sihhh? I think it is
sooo menakutkan. If I don’t even recognize myself completely, How cud I recognize others..? You know those Indonesians who seem to be “ok ok aja”
tau nya hati kesel.. or those who “shout in your face” just to show their
power.. but yeaps, i have learnt that emang sometimes eventho hati lagi kesel, you just have to
put on your smiley mask on your face..

Ah Well, so much for human
complex. I had enuff.

Anyway, sum people keep on forcing
me to tell them what happened to me.. it was simply a strom.. gloomy month I
had on Jan and Feb…

Bener bener, “what a way to begin
a year..” when everything goes WRONG, hati kacau, where i still have to excel at  sKuL, ga ada excuse to mess-up my duties.. my boss dont compromise my heart condition.. duhhh bener bener butuh dOkter!!! dokter cinta, dokter yang bisa ngehibur, meng-comfort, yg cakep.. (haha, yea rite).

yaaah, but it’s all good now. i passed the heaviest storm in life so farrr,  uh huh, Thank GOD i have Jesusssss. ah, how could i live without You.

After this heavy break down, I
decided to help myself resting hati, jiwa, raga, and especially my brain. I
seriously need to go on a vacation.

I am still in the middle of choosing where to go. The
options are between the two,

London or Atlanta. I was ready to
book the ticket to London tapi hati tiba tiba kurang sejahtera euy.. “abis baru aja
melewati stormy sea.. kalo pegi jauh kesan nya pelampiasan banget sih.. malah
malah ngga enjoy… bukan nya klo pegi harus pas hati senang?? Apalagi kalo
disana banyak shopping-an.. euh, bisa bisa jadi ngga niat ngapa-ngapa in gara
gara hati lagi not in the mood.” …. tenang ger, i will go there koqq one day.. hold on ok..

Nah, Atlanta.
Aaahhh.. I miss Atlanta wayyy too much. The city offers too many beautiful places, the warm, pleasant,
lovely people.. awww, especially my beloved best friends who make me feel
belong.. ifgf church!!!bottom line, I miss everything and everyone in Atlanta.

sooo, any suggestion of where i should go??

Eva once said to me.. “teeeph
kenapa pindah ke SF??? Gile Atlanta enakkk bangetttt, gua suka bangettttt… ada One – Two – Mozart – (Moses yah Va??) hehe” duh
im crossing my finger deh, I really wanna go there… but since I just moved to a
new apartment, jadi nya brasa sibuk aja, my stuffs are all over the
place, whereas winter break is just around the corner. Pegi vacation or beresin
apartment??

Definitely: VACATION!! Haha.

finally, i can write this long. thanks you for mr. "Russell Pieter" who tells me just too many garinkkk jokes. ia dehhh, you are garink in a way, tapi cukup menghibur koqqqq. haha. you need me to prove it: saya suda kembali bersinar dan berpijar seperti dulu kaLa.. i can use my Laugh Out Loud icon lagi, yea???

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