heart
kamu datang disaat yang tidak tepat..
saat luka masih membekas
saat hati belum tersusun seutuhnya
kamu datang terlalu cepat
saat pikiran belum bisa lupa
saat tanya masih belum terjawab
tapi haruskah aku peduli semua nya
haruskah selalu ada kesempurnaan
atau mungkinkah ini caraNya mempertemukan?
saat jiwa masih lelah, saat hati masih remuk
saat pikiran belum siap
kamu…
datang menyapa,
dan aku,
sungguh terlena…
inikah dilemma?
[hypocrisy]
in the process
here i am readerss..
don’t ask me why i haven’t posted anything lately. my frens been asking me to write sumthing, updates – stories – or anythingg.. but i just not in the mood.
i am on my lowest point ever in life. don’t ask me why. i won’t be able to elaborate. it’s too painful, too hurtful, too deep, too sad, too unforgetable..
Thank Godddddd for Petrus Agung who came to SF last saturday. God spoke to me directly. the message was sooooo powerful that "everybody pasti punya luka.. and that’s our choice buat either live with that or get rid from it and run with God."
i made my choice: run with God.
i gave 3 days deadline for myself to fight the grief, and that was it. time to recover. forgive – forget – and move on.
hahaha, everyone pasti bertanya tanyaa, what’s happening??? but yea, again, dont ask me why. intinya, God is at work around me.. and at the same time, saya lagi dibentuk Tuhannn teman temann, dibentukk abissss thru kejadian" yg sama sekali tidak bisa dimengerti. and to be honest, i dont know mau dibentuk jadi apa.. but i know for sure that God has a great purpose upon my life.. and as long as i trust my Maker, i’ll be fine.
ya dah, reggyyy nihh, segini aja yah.. i really not in the mood of writing blog.. and dipaksain. =) hehe. i’ll write something else later… promise you. =) =)
adioS
