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marilah kita nge blog ria… ^__^
well well well.. as you guys probably uda pusing listening to my wishiii wasshii suka duka being too busyyy, finally im done with all that. im officially starting my first day of "hidup tenang". haha.
last nite, i had a music practice for the next saturday moment of harvest at san bruno, took my bro home to pleasant hill which was one hr drive, and decided to stay over at my bro’s apt. i was too sleepy to drive back to hayward. another one hr drive!! goshhh. thankgudness for jalan yg super mulus and highways that allow me to drive 90miles/hr. if not i’ll probably ketiduran di jalan.
see, one thing i miss about bandung, 30 minutes drive, you already reach ujung nya bandung (klo lagi ngga macet). hhehe. my bro stated, "waaa klo yg namanya uda friday saturday mahh ka, yg namanya keluaran tol pastur bisa macet nya sampe 2 kiloo.. mobil plat B smuah!". whereas here in sf, kmana mana jauhhh. cuma gara" ditolong highway aja jadi kerasa deket.
anyway..
so here i amm.. (minjem laptop nya della) nyanteiii blom mandiii.. hahaha. im soo bersukacita uda siang gini blom mandi (for a year i have to wake up early in the morning, everysingle dayyy), santei abis reading magz, blogging, calling my friends, and planning for my trip to indo. =) =) heaven on earth. hoho.
updates, today is the first day of the 40 days fasting and praying season.. me and my bro managed to join the season as well. lagi banyak yg kudu didoaken and di syafaat ken. yea, put them all to Jesus. every problems are small in His eyes. amen!
gawatnya, in the morning, blom apa apa uda laper!! especially karna inget ada nasi tumpeng di kulkasss. and tell me about it again.. hari apa inih??? 1st day of puasa?? you gotta be kidding. rehuahua. ow ow, ci Lilly said, puasa itu kan menahan godaan, it is not only food. semua yg berhubungan dengan "kedagingan" juga bisa dipuasain. i was like.. "friendster is my number uno thing yg hrs dipuasa in".. hahha. but weleh welehh.. hari pertamanya bertepatan sekali with my first day of freedom.. hari ini harus puasa friendster and makan enak? waiyaahh. how about allocating my time to shopping time? same different? ehahaha.
ya sudah lah, im gonna start reading bible and berdoa saja. =)
join the prayer season donk, all.. and experience breakthrough in your life. guarantee. =)
adiOs
time fo’ myself critanyaa
my super ruwet activities have consequently made me feel so faraway from this technology.
til today, im thinking to do myself a favor, a moment for just me and my world. and here i am, on my blog. it’s not like what you think.. my version of "time fo’ my self" is not laying down on my precious bed for 15 hrs, not 2 hrs massage-spa-meni-pedi, nor shopping spree jalan" di sf downtown for hrs. it’s simply a 3 hrs of ngga mikirin orang laen. not even pacar.
im on my working place, during a quarter break, so eventho we’re open fo’ student, yg dateng dikit banget.. so for the next 3 hrs, i’ll be here in this quite place.
see, i have an issue. even on a break i still trapped on my hectic activities. work-work-work-ministry-ngurusin dd-merhatiin pacar-bantuin temen-this and that. my problem is.. i cant say NO.
Last 2 days, i have a big fight with my half. that was one of the biggest fights we had so far. subject nya sama" aja. he cant deal this particular sifat of mine: cant say NO. plin plan. for him it’s a ridicule thing to sacrifice your own self just to please others. and yea. call him (us) not a so good raconteur, we end up hurting each other’s feelings. he assumes that my sanguine character always requires recognition of a good image. i will go extra mile to do "something yg ngga perlu" according to him, sacrifice my own self, just to create an image of a good stefannie. impress people. “aku ngerti ko, orang sanguine emang suka butuh acknowledgment from others, they love being “loved” by others”. ohmigoshhh. he’s too honest or what?
well, of course i defend my self, i said that his "tralu cuek sama orang" character will make him disebelin orang (which is true). hahaha. and i end up listed nama" orang yg bt sama dia.
tell me it’s a guy pride or whatsoever. all i know, it’s a sensitive subject to talk about. we finally decided to go on our own separate ways. Giving up to “too many” character differences of ours. We raised our white flags. Broke up.
yesterday, i came here with mata bengkak, tears yg ngga bisa di setopp. ah, am i too sensitive? i feel numb. but once i shared this to my fren, the wound in the heart was too painful. i got 3 calls with only silence that talk.
at this peak i realize,
…you know i cant smile without you…
=)
haha.. Pardon me to take your happy mood away.
we made it up again koq. After those teary nite, we talked, with a clear mind, coOl down gt. we didnt say a lot, he just asked if i love him still. ei, i was being so jaim by asking him "how about you?". just to make sure he said yes, i still love you. hahahaha.. just kidding.
enuff for the mushy, let’s update with me. ^__^
i booked my ticket to indoo.. seneng banget. i’ll go home oct 29 til jan 7. ow, anybody know how to get rid of this phobia: takut naek pesawat.. hahaha. malu"in i know, but i just got this phobia last year. after watching the news on indo’s tv channel yg ngeliput one plane crash, for some reason, i feel super deg deg an, especially klo ada turbulence. Gimana donk? im planning to take Nyquil to make me sleep throughout the whole trip. hehehe.
what else ya, my super lovely dad planned to go on cruise for my holiday. it’ll be singapore-KL-bangkok, and prolly a trip to china. im on a stage of ngebujukin mom and dad buat boleh ajak" orang. you know whO. haha.
ya suteralah, my one hour sudah termakan oleh blog ini. gotta do some gurl talk with my co-worker. didnt i plan for " my self only" time? ahh. you know me.
gracias. muchos love. ^__^
